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Castles Made Of Sand

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Journal Entry: Sat Aug 15, 2009, 11:53 PM
Alright, I made some major fuck ups down the road of life in the past eight months. Here's my story:

This all started back in December of 2008. I was called up by a good friend of mine, who I went to school with for two and a half years. Hadn't seen him in a long time, so I figured it was about time to actually spend some good chilling time.

At this point in my life, the only thing I'd ever tried was marijuana, and at that point I smoked about three or four cigarettes a day. I probably should have left it there too.

Once we started chilling, I discovered we were going to pick up some ecstasy pills to do. Now, I'm a person of a very curious nature, and of course, knowing I was in a good atmosphere, and with people who knew what to do in the event of an overdose, I tried ecstasy for the first time in my life.

This was really an experience. Feelings simply too good to be true, and so on.

Everything went well for me after that. I never really got a desire to do it again after I had done it the one time. At least, for a while.

Two weeks down the road, shit hits the fan. Relationship troubles etc, and I couldn't handle it. Got a free hook up for half a pill, and took it for a social event. Once again, time of my life. Only thing is, the next day I felt like total shit, and had a brutal headache. Headache goes away, and a hot shower makes me feel better.

Two / three weeks go by and I don't even think of pills. I get a random invite to chill with the same friend, and next thing I know, we've picked up pure capsules of MDMA. The MDMA lasts us until about 1:30 in the morning (Started taking it around 11?) and then we have to make a decision between ten pills or one gram of coke.

Curiosity kills the cat. We hit blow.

The next three days were the worst three days of my life. Constant wake till sleep hangover.

Eventual relationship issues lead to a break up, and the next thing I know, I've got my own pill dealer. Bad ideas lead to bad events, and next thing I know I can't get high without hitting about three pills.

To fast forward to March, I'm hitting pills for fourteen days straight. This is probably the ultimate low I've ever hit in my life. I was struggling to find cash, and when I did find cash, I'd usually blow a lot of it on drugs. As I look back now, I know I wasn't doing well at all. I'd hide it though.

Eventually in April, I realized I had a problem. And it wasn't exactly a little problem, either. April 2, 2009 was my first day sober of any and all hard drugs.

The first twenty three days were the worst twenty three days of my life. I woke up every day with back pain, a rank migraine and no matter how much tylenol I'd take, it would be there all day. The first day I woke up (Day 24) without a migraine, was one of the best days of my life. Eventually, the back pain left as well.

Today is day 133, and I'm not completely sober, but I haven't touched pills or cocaine at all.

In eight months, my life completely flipped, and now it's slowly coming back to me now. I fucked myself over so many times because of drugs. My nose is in bad shape because I chose to do lines of pills with the wrong pills. My body temperature isn't regulated. I can go from boiling hot to freezing cold in an incredibly quick time.

This is the story of my addiction. I lost a lot in life because of my drug issue. Drugs created experiences for me, but I don't really see it as worth it at all now. Addiction is the one devil on my shoulder, but I still have no desires to touch ecstasy again in my life. I learned my lesson.

I really dunno why I'm posting this. I guess I feel I just have to get it off of my chest. I've been pondering writing this down or not. I guess I just made a spontaneous decision to do so. I know I've left a lot out, and I'll probably leave it like that. I dunno how many people will read this, but I don't really care.

People Who I Watch That I'd Like to Meet: (No particular order)
~marketgarden ~lima-bean
~video-massacre =chrisbucks
*Democat =FlatlineOnSteroids
=austinboothphoto =youreinforitnow
~mattdiflorio *Laerbn
*raspil ~bloodXpig

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  • Mood: Shame
  • Listening to: Juicy -- The Notorious B.I.G
  • Playing: Madden 10
  • Drinking: Liquid <3

deviantID

My name is Bryan Eneas, and I am a photographer in Regina.

I currently own a Canon 50D, and I'm starting to really focus on my Photography.

As soon as the weather gets warmer, I look forward to heading to the downtown area and start shooting photos from the streets of Regina to tell as many stories as I can.

How did I get my username?

I used to be a DJ for a short period of time in BC. I never really came up with a name for myself. Some people noticed that I occasionally stand very similar to a flamingo (one foot pressing against my knee, sticking out the side) and then the name stuck. So, now I'm DjFlamingo.

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Regina.
  • Interests: Photography
  • Favourite movie: Saving Private Ryan, 300, V for Vandetta, The Simpsons Movie, Hannibal, Hitman, & Red Dragon
  • Favourite band or musician: They don't all fit =(
  • Favourite genre of music: Techno, Death Metal, and Rock.
  • Favourite artist: Pablo Picasso
  • Favourite poet or writer: Any Abstract Poet.
  • Favourite photographer: Madame Marpole, and Myself
  • Favourite style of art: Photography
  • Operating System: XP
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod
  • Shell of choice: 80mm
  • Wallpaper of choice: Flamingos
  • Skin of choice: Mine!
  • Favourite game: No Clue Really
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2
  • Favourite cartoon character: Wild-e-Cyote
  • Personal Quote: "The Smith Family. Always a Kodak Moment."
  • Tools of the Trade: Canon 50D, 17-85mm 4-5.6, 50mm 1.8

Comments


:iconvideo-massacre:
Thanks, man! :hug:

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"My dear Watson, I do believe this shit is bananas."

I'm still not a dude. :o
:icondjflamingo:
My pleasure!! :)

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"from now on when anyone says "i'm tired" i'm going to automatically change the word "tired" to "retarded". that would be a better excuse and infinitely more believable." -- *raspil
:icondeath-pixi-666:
I love you!

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"Find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what-have-you. The right person is still going to think the sun shines out of your ass. Thats the kind of person thats worth sticking with." Juno
:icondjflamingo:
=D :love:

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"from now on when anyone says "i'm tired" i'm going to automatically change the word "tired" to "retarded". that would be a better excuse and infinitely more believable." -- *raspil
:icondjflamingo:
'Twas my pleasure man. :)

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"from now on when anyone says "i'm tired" i'm going to automatically change the word "tired" to "retarded". that would be a better excuse and infinitely more believable." -- *raspil
:iconmarketgarden:
I posted an extremely inspirational journal while doing I don't know what!

[link]

Read it and be enlightened!

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Da, moje tajni identitet je ciganin. Jebe ti mater, zadrt!
:iconfutureplug:
Thanks for the :+fav:

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I'll take any constructive criticism you give... [link]
:iconmarketgarden:
MOONBLADE IS BACK!

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Da, moje tajni identitet je ciganin. Jebe ti mater, zadrt!

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